Has it ever happened to you? Out of the hundreds of YouTube videos in your feed, you click on one, and it opens up a portal. It gets you thinking.
Through the magic of algorithms, I watched a short video about limiting beliefs. The presenter suggested that if I notice one limiting belief, I should write it down and figure out why it exists.
A couple of days ago, I got a job offer from a well-established knowledge process outsourcing company. I accepted the job offer.
So on the first day of August, I will begin working as an “Editor-Analyst-AI/Large Language Model Practice.” The job entails using my brains to make Bots like ChatGPT spit out human-like responses to queries.
I am very excited. But I am terribly scared.
What if I can’t handle the demands of the job?
Taking on this role is a major adjustment for me. Previously, I worked freelance, at my own time and pace. I’m cool as long as I fulfill the word count and meet the deadline.
With this new job, I will be working with a team, and because of this, I need to stick to a set schedule even if I continue to work from home.
I wonder how is this gonna work. More importantly, can I do it?
Let’s go back to that concept of limiting beliefs.
My limiting belief is summed up as “I can’t do this. I can’t cope. Change is hard for me.”
Why am I holding on to this?
How is this limiting belief serving me? It’s here for a reason.
My answer: I don’t want things to change because I have associated change with pain. If I cannot predict and control something, I will be in pain.
As you can see, I’m a certified control freak.
This set of beliefs has its roots in my childhood. But I am grown up now.
So, I ask myself. In the past few years, has change been good to me? Did I handle it well?
Surprisingly, the answer is yes. I notice that I have a mantra and say it to myself when I’m on the brink of doing something I’ve never done before.
“I’ll know what to do when I get there.”
Maybe I am not so much of a control freak after all.… I have a spontaneous side, after all.
And what if the opposite is true?
What if it’s smooth sailing most of the time?
What if I rock this job and I’m more capable than what I think?
Back when I was writing theses, I encountered the concept called Grounded Theory. Basically, here is how it works:
You observe a phenomenon (something that is yet happening and unfolding), and then based on that observation, you draw the theory.
Unlike typical a thesis question that starts with a hypothesis (which is an assumption), you ask open-ended questions.
Something like, “What will I find?”
Maybe the right approach to my new job should be Grounded Theory.
I would like to think that this new job is the best thing that has ever happened to me lately, but is it?
My intuition led me here. I know deep inside that I am on the right track.
It’s high time I challenge the limiting belief that I can’t cope and that I am incapable of handling unpredictability.
Maybe I am more resilient than I thought. But let’s see…
I am excited, but terribly scared.
Can’t deny it, it’s exhilarating.
I haven’t felt this alive in years.
