Psychology Board Exam 2017

Originally published in 2017, before I became a licensed psychologist 

Despite the sickness, the nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, I was able to take the Board Exam for Psychology.

I want to be a legit, card-carrying Psychologist in the Philippines. And if this is what I want, I need to pass this test. That was what I was thinking.

Was it ever so hard.

Not really mentally.

An honest assessment it, I think I got 60% of the answers right (75%) is passing.

Yes, I do not really think I’ll make it but that’s another story. We’ll know the results in a few days’ time (November 6 or 7….or knowing the Philippine system….whenever.)

It was hard because my body was NOT cooperating. It was hard for me to accept that I had to factor that in.

I shoulda

Coulda

Woulda

Have done my best if my body was the best….

But I was…

I am…

Sick.

I do not want to make this my damn excuse for failing.

I think sick or not, I did my best review.

I was not the top of my game (magna cum laude with three undergrad degrees level).

I have a life. With kids and a job and a house to run.

But I reviewed the best way I knew how. I reviewed while –

Zoning out the cold in Germany

When my kids were in school

When I had insomnia and woke up in the middle of some nights –

I did MY BEST. I did my best.

And if this year, 2017, I fail, there is next year and next year.

What an ego blow, Melany Heger.

But I have a life to go back to.

After the worse of my Throat Problem passes, I’ll go back to my patients.

Slowly.

Patience.

(I never thought I’d develop that virtue.)

Postscript: well, I did it!